Rindu.

I have never been a person who is close to my family members. I love them truly, but it is just the way I am. I'm much to myself and even now, when I am missing them really really badly, I prefer to be away from them, so that I know that I can handle myself.

My exams are starting next week. And I know I need to focus, but what I can do when every night I end up dreaming about them and waking up with tears down my cheeks? Its not nightmares, far away from that, instead I dreamt spending time with them like I used to. But it still breaks my heart for being away.

I know that a single phone call could do, but I wont. I am stubborn like that. I am independent like that.

Deqya, Ayin, I know you guys are maybe reading this, aku okay je. Cakap kat mak abah aku rindu.

hiccups#7

Late

Salam,

I know I'm late, but still. Better late than sorry.

Happy New Year! May the future bring us more humility than ever before.

Well, last year was something. Lots of deep thoughts and spontaneous but rather stupid act. But lets not dwell too much on the past. Take the good ones, improve the bad ones, and fight for the better.

I have a few things on my mind right now, surely every one has at this early times of the year. I just hope it will all roll out fine. Fingers crossed and prayers said.

Also, I'm really sorry for abandoning this blog of mine for quite some time. I'm not such a good blogger am I? I do have my reasons and I hope everyone understood.

I've thinking of directing this blog to another way but have not planned it thoroughly yet. I'll let you know when I did. And if any of you reader found me in FB please let me know so I can accept the friend request. You can never be too careful, can you.

On other stuff, my sweet Sister is now heavily pregnant and due next month! Can you believe that? I really wished I could be at home with family but my exam is coming right at the same time too. Total bummer! Say some prayer for her will you?

That's about it, for right now. Write to you later!

rant

Some people are just plain rude.

Talking trash is soooooo not tolerable.

Stay away!

103:1 - 3

For all the time that we have lost,

Did you ever give back to the one you cherish?

or did you always lose faith?

And did you ever say love to the one you care?

or did you always fell heavy when saying?

People who say that yesterday was yesterday,

and today is today,

they have drown.

But because He is Timeless.

And just because,

should we all be in the Exception.

Rather than be in the Deception.

the
in me
wants to wear this

and this


and read this



in Kilver Court Gardens, Somerset

videowhile holding to pink peonies on the side
image

what a dream...
*dreamer font from
wants to wear this


and this


and read this


in Kilver Court Gardens, Somerset

videowhile holding to pink peonies on the side
image

what a dream...
*dreamer font from

Heartburn

Too many things to do

Too many stuff to think about

Too many people to miss

and too many heartburn to handle.

Stop and say

Subhanallah

and pray.

quickie!

dearest family, sorry for being away, but hopefully all be well next time. much love.

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Level Zero

Peace upon my readers,

I just did an all-nighter, but without the studying part. I know, its lame. I've set my mind to finish up two chapter ( at least ) for last night but all I could managed was like 10 pages? I will be in a really big trouble if I keep doing this. Exams Baby! How could you not feeling it!

I just could not contain my jealousy of others. By which I mean of their holidays. Almost all of my friends are out and about ( in Malaysia ) enjoying summer breeze whilst I'm stuck at home with notes and books and to-be-done-exercise and other explicitly boring but yet importantly educational stuff.

Blah.Blah.Blah.Blah.Blah.Blah.Blah.Blah.Blah.Blah.

Here's my exam schedule and a few random shots I took few minutes ago. Utterly useless.

Exam dates are the ones in black. Just so you know.

Kitchen view. I love staring at these skies at night, they are just so vast and it made me feel small and powerless.

That butterfly is supposed to "halau lalat". Somehow I don't think the flies are afraid of it, enough.

And lastly my front window view. Nothing interesting this morning. Didn't manage to catch the postman either.

p/s- To contain my longing to family members at home I refuse to reply my sisters SMS last week. So sorry deqya! I'm hanging in alrite, just missing everyone like crazy, and please pray for my success in exams. Hope you are doing fine with baby :)

Tequila Shot

Hi guys,

Summer's here. Even tough my day is all sunny and breezy, my night, not so much. It has been raining heavily these couple nights. With thunderstorms even. They send chills to my bone.

Did not get to enjoy the cool summer night under the moonlight any more :(

I'm going to write an exam this coming Monday.Please pray for me, would you?

One thing I've noticed, is that lots of people have a blog nowadays. Be it a 3rd Former, a housewife, a company manager, even one of my teacher have one too. Amazing, no? Annnddddddd, everyone has started selling stuff too! Clothes, Books, Gadget you name it.

I just want to point out that some of the (I might say) young bloggers are a bit careless on security. I mean, they just post all of their personal information online. They may not be aware but there are a lot dangerous people in the online community these days. I used to be that naive but as the time goes, you'll learn.

Also, to the mom blogger out there, please be careful of posting your photos and info. You may think that you have done nothing wrong, "it's just a nice picture of my family, and besides I know how to take care of myself." But its about the kids I'm worrying about. You will never

know if there 's a man, who happens to befriend your kid and do harmful things to he/she. Just a friendly reminder.

I do love blogs that post amazing picture and craft tutorial tough. And a whole bunch of others too.

Last but not least, something interesting :

via JellyWoo originally from Patrick M.

TOODLES!